Sadness is strange
it can creep up on you and sometimes it knocks you off your feet
most times it feels like a heavy weight
dulling your senses, your desires
obliterating your will
goals and dreams drain away
an incomplete indifference remaining
Listening to the same old sad songs
relating to the emotions of the music
crying is supposed to be cathartic
but I feel that it can be a gateway
to a realm of negative emotions and self-harm behaviors
happiness is so goddamn elusive
one minute you feel that high
no drug like it in the world
I’ve been chasing that high for my entire life
I want to be happy
I want love
hardest things to admit to yourself and to others because it sets you up for the biggest disappointments